It was from the time that I was in the 7th or 8th standard, that I used to here a lot of our school seniors and a lot of our neighbor’s children being off to Pune for higher studies. I always had this question in my mind as to why do people go so far off to study? and most importantly once they go there they just be in that city for years together even after they finish studying. So my curiosity towards the place kept on increasing but somehow had this notion in my mind that only bad students who do not get a chance elsewhere in good colleges go to Pune for easy admissions. Little did I think that I would find myself in Pune city which would give a new dimension to my life.
Year 2006 I graduated from Calcutta University and was planning my Masters in Sociology .Pune University is one of the internationally acclaimed places for studying this subject, so applied for the same and got through. August 2006 I was in the city. It was rains and I just fell in love with the city at the first glace. The journey from Mumbai to Pune through the express way was a feeling so undescribable. The feelings were mixed. On one hand I was fascinated by the scenic beauty around and on the other hand there was a fear of the unknown and the unseen. A new life started very soon. All the fear and craving to go home some how vanished in few months. Soon friends became family and PG became the home where I loved coming back after an exhausting day where we friends would jabber through the night and be off the next day morning for our individual workplaces.
University life started with lots of research work around subjects which I honestly did not like much because that would mean that I will have to be more serious towards studies and honesty that was not me. However my grades reflected something completely different from the above statement. I was soon made the CR which meant a lot of added responsibilities .Initially I liked all that but later on it seemed a burden to me because for a person like me who did not know how to handle her own responsibilities had to take the responsibility of 60 other people, which meant a great deal at that age.
Soon the number of friends in the friend’s list of Orkut started on increasing and overall life started taking a good shape. The frequent trips in and around Maharashtra kept me away from reality. I somehow thought that this is how life was and this is how it was supposed to carry on but 2010 made me realize that life is not all about fun and wildness but its also about stability and practicality. It was in 2010 that I left Pune the city I loved, a city that has both given me a lot as well as it was taken a lot of things away from me. Little did I think that that I would leave the City but I guess that is what was there in my cards and I moved back to Kolkata. Moving back life has changed a lot. The Orkut list has shrunk; there are no more staying awake late, no more frequent outings and above all no more that I can expect of life now.
Friday, March 19, 2010
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Loosing a dear one
I always knew that friends are important in life but never realized what is was not to have a close friend by one's side.Reality hit me on Feb 9th 2010 morning when I received a messaged early in the morning from my brother saying 'Natu died last night'.I thought it was a joke so called him up to give him a blast for cracking such a bad joke.I wish it would have been a joke.To my dismay I found out that Natu was actually with us no more.Now rewinding a little, a lot of things struck me - Natu had called me on the night of his accident at 12.35 in the night but I was sleeping too hard to hear my phone's ring and hence I missed the call and he wet with an accident right after that.Got to know from the Police that a stonechips loaded truck had toppled on the taxi in which he was returning home that very night.One incident changed it all.An incident that has made me realize how important he was in my life.My closest friend was not there anymore to give me a patient ear.Its believed that a person gets to know in advance that something is going to happen with him and probably that was a reason why Natu had been insisting me to meet him on that very day of his accident but I was too caught up too meet him.And now I repent for my deed.Its difficult to explain some one how much I miss you my dear friend.The sight of your stale body still haunts me sometimes.I really miss talking to you ..............but life moves on and so do we.I have also moved on with your memories........ Cant write any more because my eyes are watering and cant see the words in front of me properly.Miss u a lot.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
An exceptional drive.............on winter night
It was in the month of Februray.Pune had the most chilly weather that very night.My few friends and I decided to go to Mulshi dam.We really were so enthusiastic on the whole idea that we never thought twice.Two girls and two guys............on a bike and a scooty............little did we think what that night had in store for us.we started at 6 in the evening for Mulshi.Though we had plans of seeing the sunset............but the whole lethargy business did not pull us out of the house early.We started ............there were lots of thrill,excitement............an expectation of a great journey.The two guys were on the bike and I and my friend were on the scooty driven by her.Driving down the road of Mulsi was great............we stopped at intervals to Hog over some food and the same time to streach our bodies.Soon the headlights had to be put on............it was already dark.The speeding bikes had to be slowed down.Soon a jerk and our scooty stopped.We girls had told the guys to be near us while driving but looking around we saw no one.The roads were completely deserted.we really were scared.....................a few minutes later we realised that we were close to the dam and it would be a safe idea to walk down ,but soon enough these guys appeared .............They simply got a tharshing from us for not being around.The scooty had some problem which was soon looked into by the guys and in a minutes time both the scooty and the bike made its way through the undulating roads towards the dam.we reached Mulsi at around 8.30...........It was absolute dark...............nothing could be seen.........it was for the first time i realised the silence of nature.Not a sound could be heard.We four stood there for a few minutes............no one spoke.............we really did not know what to say.On our one hand were the silent waters of Mulsi dam dam on the other was the forests beckoning us inside.The atmosphere was spooky.........we all felt a little uneasy and decided to make a start to come back home.........It was then it happned...........We say something so unbelievable.It was a cannibal.We could not believe our eyes..........But soon we realised that we all had got it right...........We were dumbstruk for a few seconds.....and the we drove back with a speed unimagined of...........None of us could speak............The wind had frozen or hand and mouth............We reached pune at 2.30...........coming home we all heaved a sigh of relief............
The thought of this day still makes my blood cold...........
The thought of this day still makes my blood cold...........
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
The unspoken words ……..of life.
There are very few people in life with whom we can share our heart out. This person is the one who can understand us. Well the word ‘understand’ is a small word…..I really don’t know what word should fit the context appropriately. I am sure a person like this has been there in each ones life... A person who was there with you through thick and thin. The one who knows you better than you know yourself, the one who wiped away all your confused moments ,all your fears and sorrows of life.
Its really an altogether different and a special feeling to come across ‘that someone’ who knows your every move, who knew how to make you happy…..and knew exactly when you were sad……this ‘messiah’ had an answer to every problem in your life. One who knew what you meant, when you said something……..and the message you tried to convey through your eyes .One who could understand your unspoken words……..
But what happens when this figure goes away from our life or may be at times our own deeds push them away from us, whom do we hold on to? Questions come to our mind as to, “what am I supposed to do now?” “where do I go?”
And then a series of question starts attacking…What do we do then? Do you have an answer to it……… well! neither do I, but I guess we cry our heart out ………Cry for the great and irreparable loss. A loss which we never thought would cost us so much. A loss which can never be compensated. But do you know that this loss makes us realize how important the person was in our life. It is then that we realize the person’s worth in our life…but the saddest part of the episode is that by the time we realize it, its too late. This is just an example of how life keeps teaching us small lessons ,which somehow we tend to loose as we move on with life……..So people go slow…..or else you might loose something for which you might repent all your life.
Its really an altogether different and a special feeling to come across ‘that someone’ who knows your every move, who knew how to make you happy…..and knew exactly when you were sad……this ‘messiah’ had an answer to every problem in your life. One who knew what you meant, when you said something……..and the message you tried to convey through your eyes .One who could understand your unspoken words……..
But what happens when this figure goes away from our life or may be at times our own deeds push them away from us, whom do we hold on to? Questions come to our mind as to, “what am I supposed to do now?” “where do I go?”
And then a series of question starts attacking…What do we do then? Do you have an answer to it……… well! neither do I, but I guess we cry our heart out ………Cry for the great and irreparable loss. A loss which we never thought would cost us so much. A loss which can never be compensated. But do you know that this loss makes us realize how important the person was in our life. It is then that we realize the person’s worth in our life…but the saddest part of the episode is that by the time we realize it, its too late. This is just an example of how life keeps teaching us small lessons ,which somehow we tend to loose as we move on with life……..So people go slow…..or else you might loose something for which you might repent all your life.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Bhalobasha Theke Jaye…….
Aami jodi aami thaktam aajo
Tobe ki phiriye nite mukh?
Ashole shomoy bodle daye shobkichuie
Moner moddhe jagiye tole oshukh
Kintu jodi tamon thaka jeto
Thik jamonti chilam aage
Tobe ki oshubidhe hoto?
Aamake thik nite tumi chine,
Bujhte parte onek kaler aankhi
Bodle jayini ontore ektuo
Majhe majhe, ektu shomoy kore
Take tumi chine nite cheyo……….
Shomoy jodi aashe shomoy moton,
Aajo shobi thake ager moton!
Ektu shudhu dukkho bhule giye
Moner moddhe anondo ke niye
Shobkichu bodle jodi jaye!
Bhalobasha thiki theke jaye……..
Tobe ki phiriye nite mukh?
Ashole shomoy bodle daye shobkichuie
Moner moddhe jagiye tole oshukh
Kintu jodi tamon thaka jeto
Thik jamonti chilam aage
Tobe ki oshubidhe hoto?
Aamake thik nite tumi chine,
Bujhte parte onek kaler aankhi
Bodle jayini ontore ektuo
Majhe majhe, ektu shomoy kore
Take tumi chine nite cheyo……….
Shomoy jodi aashe shomoy moton,
Aajo shobi thake ager moton!
Ektu shudhu dukkho bhule giye
Moner moddhe anondo ke niye
Shobkichu bodle jodi jaye!
Bhalobasha thiki theke jaye……..
Shukher Oshukh
Aamar aakash taraye bhore gelo,
Jedin holo tomar shathe aalap.
Moner moyur tokhon neche chilo
Mele diye taar rong-baharir pekhom.
Batash bhore diyechilo hiron
Noyon phuler gondho boye tonee(shorire)
Shobar cheye shukhi aami…….
Shedin shei kotha mene chilam mone.
Aajo aakash taraye bhora….
Aajo batash shoman gondho-bahi
Tobu mone moyuri keno jano aaj
Tamon kore nachte nirutshahi!
Aaj ki tobe aar shukhi noy aami?
Shobai shukhi nijer mone mone
Aamar ‘shukhi’ monee jeno kothay oshukh
Lukiye aache kono ojana ek kone….
Jedin holo tomar shathe aalap.
Moner moyur tokhon neche chilo
Mele diye taar rong-baharir pekhom.
Batash bhore diyechilo hiron
Noyon phuler gondho boye tonee(shorire)
Shobar cheye shukhi aami…….
Shedin shei kotha mene chilam mone.
Aajo aakash taraye bhora….
Aajo batash shoman gondho-bahi
Tobu mone moyuri keno jano aaj
Tamon kore nachte nirutshahi!
Aaj ki tobe aar shukhi noy aami?
Shobai shukhi nijer mone mone
Aamar ‘shukhi’ monee jeno kothay oshukh
Lukiye aache kono ojana ek kone….
COMPROMISE………………………the other name for life
This word really does not exist in most of our dictionary these days. The words sacrifice and compromise seems to have vanished somewhere……….Its “gone with the time” Have we ever thought that the whole world exists on these two words. Two nations make compromises over treaties for the peaceful co existence of the nations. People all over the world make compromises……..a compromise which lets the nations survive, which lets the people live in peace.
All of us have been compromising throughout our lives, consciously or unconsciously .However most of you reading this might not agree to what I say. but think deep, you will get the answer for yourself. Lets get back to the journey of compromises and sacrifices………and see how have we all been doing it………………
The first and the most important compromise of our life. The compromise of being born as someone or something not wanting to be…….then the compromise of not being able to select our sex…….the compromise of not being able to select our parents…..the compromise of not being able to select the family we are born into……..sounds absurd RIGHT!!!!!!!!well but all of it is true……..and then the journey of sacrifices begin…………..
Sacrifices that we all have been making unknowingly………willingly or unwillingly……Sacrificing our childhood to the schools from where we learn to behave oops!!!!!!! rather we learn the ‘etiquettes’ of the so called ‘civilized’
society…
sacrificing our youth to our friends who form the most important part of each ones life……..and then compromising on each step of our relationship to make it a success……..and the story continues……..
We all sacrifice as daughters and sons, sacrifice as wives and husbands, sacrifice as parents, grandparents……But trust me these small compromises that we make, makes us into what we actually are….so ever before you say you have never compromised and intend to do so ever in life………think before you say……..These little “compromises” in life gives us the greatest returns……..So if this 10letter word has so much power, then why experience it once …….trust me it will help you in making the journey of life a beautiful experience……
All of us have been compromising throughout our lives, consciously or unconsciously .However most of you reading this might not agree to what I say. but think deep, you will get the answer for yourself. Lets get back to the journey of compromises and sacrifices………and see how have we all been doing it………………
The first and the most important compromise of our life. The compromise of being born as someone or something not wanting to be…….then the compromise of not being able to select our sex…….the compromise of not being able to select our parents…..the compromise of not being able to select the family we are born into……..sounds absurd RIGHT!!!!!!!!well but all of it is true……..and then the journey of sacrifices begin…………..
Sacrifices that we all have been making unknowingly………willingly or unwillingly……Sacrificing our childhood to the schools from where we learn to behave oops!!!!!!! rather we learn the ‘etiquettes’ of the so called ‘civilized’
society…
sacrificing our youth to our friends who form the most important part of each ones life……..and then compromising on each step of our relationship to make it a success……..and the story continues……..
We all sacrifice as daughters and sons, sacrifice as wives and husbands, sacrifice as parents, grandparents……But trust me these small compromises that we make, makes us into what we actually are….so ever before you say you have never compromised and intend to do so ever in life………think before you say……..These little “compromises” in life gives us the greatest returns……..So if this 10letter word has so much power, then why experience it once …….trust me it will help you in making the journey of life a beautiful experience……
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